TEARS...a healing process as well....
I have been reading John Chapter 4 in the Holy Bible...here is my prayer through my assignment of PTL. I cried through this prayer...
Dear
God, how I long to be a true disciple of yours. I wish that I could have
followed you around Galilee and into Cana. Would I have struggled with disbelief
as I watched you help people? Sometimes I feel like the Samaritan woman,
unworthy and not wanting anyone to know the truth about my past. Yet, I find
incredible hope in these verses. You knew that woman! You knew she had five
husbands and yet you offered her living water. I have received this living water you have offered. The world and its "greed" have left me thirsty for something it cannot
give. I come to you this morning, still thirsty. Fill me up with YOU. Teach me what it
means to worship YOU in Spirit and Truth. Open my eyes to the harvest that is all around and cause me to
get busy for YOU. Use my words and my life to point others to YOU. As I depart
from our special time together, I want to take YOU at your word. Only YOU can
make that happen. In my weak faith, hold my hand and show me the way. In Jesus
name, Amen.
Before my appointment May 28, 2014 with my Infectious Disease Dr., I already knew.....the infection was coming back causing problems.
About three days before my appointment, I started to notice the "prickling" in the left side of my head, and then some pain, actually towards the back of my head. My speech became more difficult and my word retrieval as well. Both eyes started feeling more sensitive to light. My husband was on top of this as well.
I was prepared...or so I thought. When my Dr. actually said this, I felt numb. I expressed many "ways" I had tried to "help" myself through diet, exercise, cleaning with bleach, washing constantly....he stopped me and drew a picture. He drew the brain cells and then dots in between them; through them, and he said, "This is not your fault, there was no way for you to stop this. Bacteria grows rapidly, and we need to stop it from more growth with the antibiotic." I asked him if it was from my osteomyelitis, and he said "yes".
With the "Fantastic Plan" ahead, to see my new grand-daughter, I asked him if I could still travel. Also, I questioned if I could transfer this bacteria to anyone in anyway! He said, yes to travel and no to being contagious. Whew!
He also said I needed blood work before this next 2 month regimen. So while waiting at Quest, I pulled out my IPAD and started reading my Bible. I am reading all of St. John through a special "assignment" my cousin, Kent shared with me.
I found the following information in a search of "idiopathic" diseases. We are also called "orphans"...but I know that HE knows me....and I will never be an orphan.
RARE DISEASES AND SUPPORT
I actually sent PCORI an e-mail and they responded:
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